The War of My Mind by Jacob Blouse
Worry, worry, and more worry. This is a common mindset that I have let consume my life for years. This subject is a real personal one for me because I have seen where anxiety has been used by the devil in the war of my mind.
Every year I take on a new topic to study for the whole year. I have read the Bible through many times and I felt like I needed to challenge myself to dive in deeper on subjects. Last year, I spent 12 months studying the subject of Worship. Anyone who knows me would not be surprised to find out that worship is a very close subject to my heart and I could probably spend hours talking to you about it. I was blown away studying this subject. Looking into how the Hebrews worshiped, the seven different Hebrew words for worship and their meanings, and how worship methods have evolved over the years. One book I would highly recommend is “Holy Roar: 7 Words That Will Change The Way You Worship” by Darren Whitehead and Chris Tomlin. It wasn’t until studying this that I realized that my worship wasn’t authentic. This has been an awakening experience. For the year 2020, I felt God calling me to study the subject of Prayer. A book that instantly caught my attention was “Dangerous Prayers” by Craig Groeschel.
At the start of this, I had mentioned that the process of worrying has been something that has consumed my life for far too long. Maybe you are reading this and thinking… Yep, that’s me too. The reason I told you what I have been studying is because worship and prayer are what I have been using to battle the anxiety the devil has been throwing my way.
Whether you know it or not… you are at war. The devil has waged a war against your mind and he will use lies to spark depression, anxiety, fear, hate, and so much more.
For me, anxiety has felt like a never ending cycle. Like i’m spinning around in my thoughts and not realizing that whatever I let control my mind, is what will show on the outside.
I had an awakening experience during a worship concert I attended a few years ago. I still remember standing still and feeling overcome with emotion because I knew that the battle in my mind was keeping me from fully engaging in this moment of worship. I knew that I needed to surrender. As the music flooded that arena with thousands of voices singing, “How great is our God…” I told the devil that he can no longer have control of my mind. I lifted my hands up, just as a child does reaching for his father, and truly felt my heart worship. It wasn’t just a song I was singing… It was a genuine prayer to my Father.
This is how we fight the war we have in our minds. As Christ followers, our souls belong to Him, but our bodies are still in this world. The enemy will do everything he can to win the war of your mind because he knows the threat you are to him if your life is rooted in worship.
One worship song I absolutely love is called “See a Victory” by Elevation Worship. The opening line in this song is taken straight from my favorite verse found in Isaiah 54:17
“No weapon formed against you will prosper,
And every tongue which rises against you in judgment
You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord.”
How encouraging is this? No matter what we face, God doesn’t just promise us the victory… He allows us to see beyond the victory. We can see this all throughout scripture and be reminded that the battle belongs to the Lord.
If you are struggling with the war inside you, no matter what the circumstances are, I encourage you to not just read your Bible, say a prayer, and then hope for the best. I urge you to worship with a heart of surrender. I love what this speaker says about worship:
“If the word of God is a sword, then worship is how you swing it.” – Rich Wilkerson
Aren’t you tired of not fighting back? Like the words you sing in church just bounce off the ceiling and you don’t do anything to change it. This is how I felt for most of my life. I made the choice to discover what God intended worship to be. Its not standing, singing a few songs on a Sunday morning, and sitting down for a message. That is just going through the motions and its pointless. Worship is a lifestyle. You have to choose it, study it, and practice it on a daily basis, and most importantly… use it to fight back against the enemy.
If your mind can be consumed with fear, anxiety, or hate… that means it can also be consumed with worship instead. We live in a day and age that technology has allowed us to have such great worship songs right in our devices. I get so excited because some of the greatest worship songs ever are currently being wrote and there are so many to choose from! Listen to them. Practice what you sing.
In closing, if you are struggling with depression, anxiety, or anything else. I also, encourage you to start reading the book of Psalms. Reading the prayers and worship lyrics of David always brings me closer to God and I hope it will do the same for you.
You don’t have to live with the weight of everything on your shoulders. We were not designed for that.
“Cast all your anxiety on Him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7